“Until the philosophy which holds one race superior
and another inferior is finally and permanently, discredited and abandoned -
Everywhere is war!” sang Bob Marley.
I am thirteen years old. I have been at this grammar school barely a
couple of weeks. I’m exploring the grounds on my own at lunchtime when I notice
another pupil, Brannigan, and his gang advancing slowly towards me. I have an
ominous feeling as I see a menacing look on his face and the expectation of a
‘rumble’ in the eyes of his friends. I naively wait till they have cornered me
before acknowledging their presence. It is clear to me that there is an
intention of some kind of confrontation, but being new to all this I have no
idea how this is supposed to unfold.
“Oi, Paki!” he addresses me. His friends laugh. At this point in my life, I have never been called a Paki before, though I know that it is a racial insult directed towards anyone of South Asian descent, or even of a slightly darker complexion. I stand there sheepishly, not knowing what to do. Should I try to run away, or stand my ground? Instead, I pretend that I do not fully understand. “Hello,” I reply, a little nervously. He looks back at his friends with an incredulous smile. “Paki!” he says again, more forcefully, trying to goad me into a fight with him and his friends, a fight that both he and I know I would lose.
“Actually, my parents are from India and I was born here,” I say, hoping that this will somehow make a difference. Since I’m not responding to his provocations, he decides to use this opportunity to make a political speech justifying his behaviour in front of his friends.
“Well you still come here and take all our jobs,” he
announces. I think about this for a moment. It really doesn’t make any sense to
me, and feel I should point this out to him.
“But I don’t have a job,” I reply. “I’m still going to school, you see.” His friends start laughing, but this time at him. He looks a bit confused but tries to maintain control of the situation.
“Yeah, but you will take our jobs one day,” he retorts.
I try to negotiate, appealing to his sense of reason. “Look, I’ll tell you what. Why don’t you tell me which job you’re going to do, and I won’t go for the same one?” His friends giggle at this and somehow I have managed to diffuse the situation for long enough: the school bell rings, and I am proverbially saved.
The subject of race and migration, and the conflict
with which it is often associated, is a contentious one for many. It is
probably one of the most difficult topics to tackle with any objectivity, since
we have all been exposed to assumptions about race and migration which we may
have internalized without knowing. I will endeavour to write as honestly and
openly as possible about my own personal experience, interspersing my writing
with titbits of information garnered from my literature review (with links to media in blue) and some of the
conclusions at which I arrived. I deliberately include racist labels for context
and use colour descriptors, as well as the word ‘race’, which I completely
acknowledge is itself a social and political construct. I apologize in advance for this, as well as
the stream of consciousness style.
We live on a beautiful planet, with so much potential,
and have come a long way in many regards. Paradoxically, it is also a world
ravaged by pollution, environmental devastation, endless wars, famine and
brutal inequality, where 10 men own more wealth than 85 countries! That should
give us pause to reflect on our predicament. Even those who are doing
relatively well need to heed the cautionary tales of history - that without
systemic change, their own good fortune cannot last forever. Their legacies
will not be passed on to future generations beyond their own lifetimes. Sir
Francis Galton the pioneer of Eugenics was ultimately proven wrong in his
study, showing that success in one generation is not a guarantee of its
continuation in others. A global pandemic and its economic implications just
exacerbate this pre-existing condition.
The state of the world, and its socio-economic
malaise, is undoubtedly complex. I
believe there is a roadmap to a solution which requires a shift in global
consciousness, and a little imagination to dare to dream of something better
for all of us on this planet. In the
world order we live in, some human beings are valued less than others. This is
evident through our global economic system and its institutions that strongly
favour the wealthy, feeding the ever-growing gap between rich and poor. This
happens on both an internal and international level, where the powerful can
siphon off the resources of the powerless. This juggernaut of consumption and
exploitation is unsustainable for society and our environment.
The way we treat each other as human beings must be
examined. The simple truth is that we are all interconnected, as COVID-19 has
adequately demonstrated. Despite our nation states, we are essentially ‘one
people’. Building a new socio-cultural-economic model is part of our
evolutionary journey. We need a new set of paradigms to replace old ones that
are no longer relevant or sustainable. That is what I hope to demonstrate by
relating my own experiences within a historical context. I will expand upon
these memories and extrapolate them to the challenges that all people face –
since, returning to my proposition – our interdependence is the basis for a
global community.
The National Front is a far-right, fascist political
party founded by Arthur Chesterton in 1967. He was a follower of Oswald Mosely
and a member of the British Union of Fascists and National Socialists - the
closest party Britain had to the Nazis. They believe in white supremacy,
biological racism, racial separatism and antisemitism. They were popular in the
1970s and 1980s but have never won seats in Parliament and have now lost their
power to other far-right parties such as the English Defence League (EDL) and
The British National Party (BNP). They were very well known to the generation
of immigrants who were the subject of their rallies - the alien cultures.
Since the 1950s, Britain was desperate to acquire
‘skilled’ workers from its former colonies in order to deal with the shortage
of labour of the post-war years. This was a real problem for the British
economy that needed a boost and the only way to do it was to increase the
work-force by importing labour. The British Nationality Act was passed in 1948
in order to allow immigration from the former colonies and Commonwealth
countries.
A lot of those skilled workers, including my university-educated
father, were forced to take unskilled or semi-skilled work in order to sustain
themselves and their families. He had a degree in physics and had studied
aeronautical engineering, yet his first job was working in a factory as a
labourer. This was a typical situation in these days and remains a barrier for
many immigrants where licensing and certifications are used to exclude.
My parents’ generation of immigrants also had to deal
with the prejudice of landlords, many of whom imposed strict rules to keep
their immigrant house ‘guests’ in line. I remember reading my father’s old
letters, discovered in a suitcase in the attic of our house: a treasure trove
of memories of when he first arrived in Britain.
Among them, I found several warning letters from
various landlords, including one about not being able to use the heating in the
ground floor accommodation he was renting. I remember my father telling me how
he used to have to sit around with blankets and cardigans to fend off the cold,
as landlords restricted the use of heating in their tenants’ rooms in the
winter.
There were many things they were not ‘allowed’ to do,
and so many restrictions that a human rights lawyer in today’s world would have
had their work cut out for them. When my parents’ landlady observed my pregnant
mother’s distended belly, instead of congratulating her on her pregnancy, she
immediately gave my parents an eviction notice. It was so difficult for my
parents to find accommodation that allowed young children that my mother had no
choice but to take me, as a two-week old baby, back to India to live with my
grandparents.
Just a few years earlier, Enoch Powell, a Conservative Member of
Parliament, had famously warned about the “rivers of blood” that would flow as
a result of immigration into Britain. The Beatles even satirized this in an
early version of ‘Get Back’ before the commercial release, known to bootleggers
as ‘No Pakistanis’. To their credit, the
Beatles used their fame to speak out against racism, they refused to play to a
segregated audience in Florida in 1964 until the audience was desegregated, and
their song ‘Blackbird’ was written in support of the civil rights movement.
For a long time, I believed there
was no sense in dwelling on these past memories, as they could not be of any
benefit. I had previously believed that incidences of racism were diminishing
as the world was changing, and that racism itself would soon be a relic of the
past. Living in Philadelphia in the second decade of 21st century
USA, I now doubt whether this is really the case. Anyone who had spent time in
Philadelphia will know that racism and prejudice are alive and well in the
‘city of brotherly love’.
People of diverse cultures and ethnicities still face barriers of
exclusion, and socio-economic hurdles, that many of their white counterparts do
not. Clearly there is a power dynamic that needs to be addressed. There is such
a thing as white privilege; it is difficult to quantify, and even more
difficult to explain to a person who does not see that it exists, because they
themselves do not feel they have been privileged at all. Arguably, there are also many white working
class people who suffer discrimination too. This is a nuanced issue complicated
by class, gender, and other visible signifiers that may make skin colour less
relevant. I do not want to diminish
these experiences and I will revisit this later. However, the suffering of
these people is not primarily defined by race, which is the issue I would like
to focus on for now.
Until I was eight years old, we had been living in Harrow, a very diverse
neighbourhood in London, and then moved to the countryside, where I grew up
surrounded by mostly white working- and middle-class people. At the local
junior school, my best friend was a British-Chinese guy, whose parents had
emigrated from Hong Kong. I did not personally experience any discrimination
there, except for the time when I helped my friend defeat one of the school
bullies. It was also the first time I experienced racism directed at someone
else.
After school one day, Ken and I were leaving school when a bully, ‘Smith’, called out to Ken, “Bye Chinky!” Ken had been told by his dad that he should always stand up to bullies, or the bullying and name-calling would never stop. He squared off against Smith, who was two years older than us.
“What did you say?” Ken asked.
Again, Smith repeated,“Chinky!” Looking down at him, he was almost a foot taller than Ken and did not expect him to retaliate. He put his fingers in the corner of his eyes to simulate epicanthic eye-folds, and goaded, “Slit-eyes!”
Without hesitation, Ken landed a punch right in the
bully’s face and the now red-faced Smith, both surprised and angry, rained
blows down on Ken. I could not stand there and watch my best friend being
beaten up, even though I was scared of the older boy, so I summoned up some
courage and landed a few punches of my own. Smith was so taken aback at these
two smaller kids working together in unison that he decided to retreat. He
turned away and ran off. We were both high on adrenaline, feeling victorious that
we had seen off this bully, and walked home recounting the fight, blow by blow.
As far as I can remember, Smith did not bother myself or Ken again. That
was one of my few successes in fighting off a racist using brute force.
There were other fights that I had later at the grammar school, but I
had no allies, and found myself facing more than one opponent at a time.
Luckily, most of these fights were broken up by a teacher. For most of my teen
years at school, I had a fair share of racist abuse. I was called ‘Paki’,
‘Nigger’, ‘Coon’, ‘Chocolate-face’, ‘Black bastard’, ‘Wog’. Whenever I hear
racial slurs and names also being used to insult people of different
backgrounds than mine I find it just as abhorrent. The hatred comes from the
same source of ignorance, and could therefore just as easily be directed at me.
I still remember some of the chants that were used against me: “Pull that
trigger, shoot that Nigger - Join the National Front!” Another was, “There
ain’t no black in the Union Jack!” Even today when I see the British flag, it
triggers memories of seeing it being brandished aggressively as a symbol of
extreme nationalism. Rationally, I know it is not, but the association was
there. The English flag, or St. George’s flag, is also used by the English
Defence League, a far-right, racist organisation. This is quite ironic as St.
George was born in Cappadocia in Turkey, of Greek parents, and is regarded as a
saint in both Christianity and Islam.
At this early stage in life, It
became quite apparent to me that even though I was born in England I was not
regarded as being English by everyone. I remember feeling very alone in my
school days, particularly at the grammar school. I was called names and had to
deal with racial abuse on almost a daily basis.
I eventually learnt to ignore the name-calling, even though it did still
get to me, and this was reflected in my educational performance, which declined.
I didn’t tell my family, as I felt shame, so they didn’t know about it till
much later. I remember even a teacher at the school making fun of my name for
cheap laughs, and I had a general feeling of hopelessness. I felt I had no-one
who would stand up for me the way I had for my friend Ken a couple of years
earlier. There was only a handful of boys in the whole school who were from any
ethnic background and only two I remember who were black. If you were good at
sports, which I was not, that made a difference to how you were perceived, so a
couple of those minority students’ skin colour was overlooked because of their
physical prowess.
William Golding’s Lord of the
Flies, which we had to read for English, became my favourite book, because
I felt I could really relate to it. The descent of a group of boys into a
groupthink pack, and the resulting tension that leads to the bullying and
eventual death of Piggy, the child perceived as ‘different’, seemed to sum up
my own predicament.
A clear, well-written memoir containing instances so similar to racist incidents that occur here in the U.S.A. Feelings of helplessness, hopelessness and fear are common, too. Many justice, so-called 'civil rights' groups advocate what you and Ken did as children: Join forces to fight and defeat the bully! It's a reasonable approach.
ReplyDeleteThankyou Unknown, I appreciate your comment. Strength in unity makes a difference.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your story! Your experiences resonate with those of us who endured similar forms of racism along our own immigrant journeys.
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DeleteThanks Samee. It was a well written, poignant and thought provoking piece. I honestly didn't know you went through such a rough time at RGS. Must admit I got a fair bit of abuse and it's sad to say that I had to get a bit rough at times to make a point so it would stop. It's better now for my kids growing up and I live in hope that people will try to understand others and recognise we are all human beings.
ReplyDeleteCheers Ken, I appreciate your comment. As a kid I felt it was shameful to tell my own family about it, so I kept it to myself. Years later, living in Philadelphia, I see the systemic racism and prejudice that affects so many lives and I feel compelled to speak out. This is a mindset rooted in fear and ignorance and can be overcome by the opposite.
ReplyDeleteConditioning to dehumanise others starts young and is a tragedy. I place HumanKind above all identities.
DeleteBeautifully written and explaining feelings and decisions of children under conditions that would be considered tough or definitively unpleasant. I also remember I had an encounter with a nice boy called “Watson” when I was 12 years old at school in Ely, Cambridgeshire that was more explanatory of what he was saying. This boy who was quite pleasant until that moment came up to me as if he had to deliver an urgent message and said, “you are colored! My parents say that we don’t like colored people”… I am quite sure the parents hadn’t told him to say that; but here we are, children are innocent until they are affected by the conditions they they live in. All of these bad attributes of human society such as racism, poverty, inequality, violence and war, etc. are not naturally occurring but the result of conditions that people live in….,
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